Last night

I know my brother in law hates me. I mean, I have known for a while that he hates me, but last night I found out how much he hates me.

Over 2 years ago, we had been fighting on something. It is too complicated to explain here. I'll write about it later, someday. I thought everything was okay like they said. Like my mother in law said actually...

Last night, I found out that he and his wife and their daughter were here, in Kuching, last two weeks to attend a conference or something like that. The wierd thing for an 'okay' relationship is he never drop by. If he don't wanna see me, at least come and say hello to his brother -just to show some respect. The most painful part is that I know he and his youngest brother was talking about visiting us and laughing on it. I can't accept that.

Well I guess everything was never been okay and they never wanna be okay with us. It is so sad to know all these because I have forgiven them long ago and yes by that time I do hope that everything will back to normal.

I know I should not post this. I tried my best to not act out my frustration towards this matter, but I failed. I guess my best just wasn't good enough. I always want to forget things that I hate, but I can't. I'm a human being.I just can't simply forget things like throwing papers into the bin. 

This matter hurt me so much but its okay. I still can live my life in the most beautiful way without them.